I took the plunge....so to speak

Well I decided to just go ahead and sign up for some more classes towards my degree...........I am always in my head anyways, so I might as well make use of the brain activity that is going on and do something worth while towards the future..........might take me another 7 years, but at least I will have proved to myself that I can do it................

I think that I was waiting because of the cost...............it was damned expensive, just for 2 classes.....which will give me 6 credits.....yippeee! only another 78 to go!

Not to mention I have kids that are going to be going out on their own soon, either school, or travelling, whatever, I guess maybe I was feeling like I should be putting the time and effort into their schooling, and their future instead of mine. Like I had my chance, and now I should just fade back and let them have their time? But how come I can't manage to do both? Other people manage to work, pay for their kids schooling, and still do their own traveling and pay for their mortgages and vehicle payments, etc.. i think it's do-able. I have never though that any education is a waste, regardless of how you use it or when you take it. I can only hope that my kids will see my effort and dedication to furthering my career, and be inspired by it. Whatever..............I am still feeling the guilt.............and until I finish this Degree program, I probably will for a long time.

So besides taking this dialysis training, I am now going to be taking 2 more full-time classes too. As well as working...............I guess that means that I will really be in my brain alot!

Wonder if I can find my way out again or whether I will go crazy?!!!!!

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Have I Got Your Attention Yet Cowboy?!

You know, I really hate it when poeple aren't 'man' enough or confident enough to open their mouth and simply say what is on their mind. I do...on a regular basis....sometimes yes, it gets me into trouble, but at least people will know where they stand with me! Dithering is annoying....and excuses are really annoying! Just say what you have to say and get it over with.... don't be hypocritical and pretend that you want something to be a certain way, pretend that you are in agreement with me or that you think the same way I do. I'd rather that you were your own person and not a clone of someone else. Cruel to be kind and all that jazz.....if you don't agree with me, so be it...we can have a discussion about it and move on....or not talk about it and still move on. I have one friend in particular that is pissing me off............you want to stay my friend......and you want to keep talking to me and keep in contact...erratically too, I might add.......no regular contact, just whenever and however you feel like it.............but at the very mention of a meet and greet, or a coffee.......you run for the hills with excuses of why you can't get together.............well fine! Just come out and say it and we can move on.....you don't want to get together............if you say it to my face, then I will know where I stand and can quit making an ass of myself by mentioning it or asking anymore! So I guess maybe the ball is your court, so to speak.................get it over with so I can quit mulling it over in my mind..............and we can get on with both our lives!
There! Is that sufficiently nasty enough to get your attention!
LOL!
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And Again...

Well, here I am again......almost 2 years later...and I am going to avail myself of a blogging space to let loose my inner turmoil! I gave up blogging for awhile......life was simply too hectic and no time..........but although I have had plenty of time over the summer to dwell on my thoughts and write them down, I did not use the opportunity to do so. Spent a fair amount of time thinking, however, most of it was late at night, lying on the floor in my living room, trying to fight off the pain in my back long enough to get some sleep....any sleep! I watched more tv this summer than I have in years..........And so some of the things running through my mind were mumbo jumbo, garbled, painfully confused and pain ridden weird stuff.....If that makes sense!
I like Facebook for keeping up with people, but do not find it easy to blog on there. But I find Facebook is getting more and more complicated and messier. I think eventually it will go the way of ICQ.....too expansive, complicated to try and manage your way around on, too much crap to add and permissions....etc. If it does become more difficult to use, I may have to get rid of my Facebook account.
So that leads me back down the path to blogging on here! I may not be faithful and blog everyday or even every week. But when my brain gets the best of me and I have to spill some crap out to make room for more........I will leave it all here!
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